It can be hard to be around our brothers and sisters in The Lord when you’re having some personal troubles. They can seem like “spiritual giants” while you feel like a little snippet next to them. I used to wonder did anyone in church ever have problems, cause I saw so many smiles and heard so much laughter. I seemed to be troubled a lot and I often wondered was something wrong with my salvation.
But as time went by, I knew I had to be myself no matter who I’m around. I don’t mean to say that I should complain or just look sad all the time, nobody wants to be around someone who’s always miserable, it zaps your energy…no, what I mean is I don’t need try to be something I’m not or live up to someone else’s standards. Everyone is different, God made us that way. We must accept ourselves and become comfortable in our own skin.
When I was very young, I was surrounded by girls who were petite, shorter than me, and prettier. I felt so uncomfortable because I was tall, had big feet, big boned, and I didn’t develop until much later. I wanted to be anyone but myself so I tried to style my hair like another girl or dress differently. I even tried to act like other girls and all the while I was becoming further and further away from what God made me to be. It would take many long years to finally reconcile with who I am.
The reality is God is holy and He wants us, His children, to be holy too. He knows we will falter, yet He still says for us to strive to do what is right. So, if I can only pray 30 minutes a day while Sister Sally Super Christian prays four hours a day, that doesn’t make her any more holier than me or me any less holier than her. If we both pray sincerely from our heart, God hears both prayers. Again, we’re not all wired the same way.
Brother Ben Big Believer might go on street corners passing out tracts and preaching the gospel to stranger-bys but if brother John Doe doesn’t do that, but instead tries to set an example by how he lives, who is holier than who? Again, it’s what in the heart that counts.
Some think if you don’t worship or study your Bible as often or as long as they do, something is wrong with your walk. I’m here to tell you, stop letting all that bother you! Be whom God made you to be. You don’t have to compare yourself to anyone else. You can’t be anyone but who you are.
Learn to be comfortable with the person inside you. If your eyes are brown instead of green, learn to like them. If your feet are larger than your friends, that’s ok, there’s plenty of stores that sell larger size shoes. That doesn’t mean you can’t look nice and stylish. You are unique and special and there’s is no one in the whole wide world like you. You matter to all who know you.
I sure wish I had learned this lesson while I was in grade school, I could have saved myself a lot of heartache, but glad I’m learning to accept how God made me. He doesn’t expect me to be anyone but myself. It’s all about Growing up in Grace!