Three years after my first husband died, I heard The Lord clearly speak to my heart to move from Georgia to Florida with his family. Now, what’s funny about that was I was not living for Jesus at that time. I was still very angry and hurt, yet I know that I know that I know He told me to go to Florida. AND He also said…”at first you will have trouble, but you will make a life there.” My late husband’s family wanted us to move in with one of his brothers who was living in North Florida.
So, I resigned from my job and a short time later I was in Florida. It happened just the way The Lord said it would…I had trouble living with his family and somehow I became a liability to them I believe. It was probably The Lord cutting the apron strings. He wanted me on His own so that He could really try to heal me and bring me back into the fold 100%. I was half in the church and half out.
At the time, I knew I needed to look for my own place. I got a one-bedroom apartment and moved on Thanksgiving Day with 16 pillows, a toaster oven, and a few toiletries. I was going to move the heavier stuff the next day. That night, I just wanted some peace and quiet so I stayed in the lil apartment laying on the pillows next to the oven baking a pizza on Thanksgiving Day! It was the BEST night I had ever had believe it or not.
Even though that first year was very hard, I knew I was in God’s will. Being in God’s will doesn’t always mean the circumstances will be comfortable. I had several jobs during my time in Florida that were hard to do…two of them I nearly walked out on. But, God always equips us to do what He calls us to if we’re willing to surrender our will, our understanding and allow Him to work in our situations. Many times I’d come home with a nagging headache and yet at the same time I knew God was in it and was working things out for my better good though I didn’t understand it at the moment.
Also, during this time, I re-dedicated myself to God was back in church living for Him again. I slowly healed, but I healed.
And you know what?, all those jobs that gave me so much trouble, broke my heart and caused me somuch pain and sorrow, also brought me these positives:
- I picked up skills in information technology I would otherwise not have learned. These skills have taken me very far in my career.
- The last job I had was eliminated, but God was equipping me to become a business owner so on January 1, 1999, I began working for myself and I’ve been self-employed ever since.
- I learned how to handle deadlines, staying organized, providing customer service and even managing customer accounts… all of which I had to know before becoming self-employed.
- Self-employment along with my IT knowledge allowed me the freedom to re-locate with my second hubby to Oregon and work remotely; all the while controlling my schedule.
Now, after that list, I’d say God absolutely and unequivocally vindicated me and worked it all out for my good. So, when I’m in a difficult situation I have to think about it differently. While it may hurt in the physical sense, God has an ultimate motive far above what I can comprehend.
I know now how important it is to trust Him and obey Him with an open heart rather than gripe and complain. God honors gratitude and I always want to be in His will no matter if it’s tough and rough or smooth and smiles.