Oh how my feelings change within a day! I start by getting up feeling pretty okay and by the afternoon, I’m frustrated, irritated and want to be left alone. I don’t think this always has to do with being a female or growing older either. I really think it’s the discomfort of life’s troubles and circumstances that causes my emotions to go up and down. The Lord tells us to be thankful no matter what’s going on around us and boy I try.
Also, we see the demise of all around us and sometimes I just wanna scream! I find I’m in prayer not everyday, but every minute. I don’t even want to watch the news nor read a story on the internet. We’re bombarded with so much negativity and it’s hard to turn a blind eye and a deaf ear. I find that if I’m not careful, I’ll find myself getting angry with God. I know He has the power to change things and I know oftentimes He does. But He’s also sovereign and part of loving and serving Him is understanding that He sees the “big picture”. I don’t. I can’t. I’m impatient and want deliverance NOW. I’m fickle, He’s stable.
He made us with emotions but the hard part is controlling them and not the other way around so while I wait for His return to correct all the wrongs in the world, may I be found praying. He understands how I feel and He knows my heart is broken when I see so many other’s hearts breaking. He understands my emotional roller coaster ride I get on everyday. No matter how long I’m waiting, He is right there beside me. He’ll help me get through this life when I open up in prayer and be real. Thank God that when I feel out of control, He’s right there waiting for to talk to Him. It’s the only way to live.