My Anguished Prayers

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I don’t consider myself an expert on how to pray. Far from it, I’ve been in many prayer meetings and I would hear people pray the most awesome prayers and think, “I wish I could pray like that.” But the longer I walk with God, the more I realize that I have to be myself when I talk to Him. I’m not like Sister so-and-so or Brother so-and-so. I’m me. Jesus wants me to come to him as me, Kim. So I talk to Him like I talk to a friend and sometimes I am laboring, anguishing like I’m in pain. And, I do feel that pain during those times when I really need Him to answer me.

When I first got saved, I was nervous to pray. I hadn’t ever done that and I wasn’t sure what to say. Of course, in church we all heard The Lord’s Prayer and that is a guide for how to pray but God wants to hear what’s on our minds. Isn’t that something? The Lord of all, the Creator of the Universe cares about us and wants us to talk to Him. As, I prayed more, it became a lifeline to me. I can hear Him speak softly to me and I can also hear Him correct me when I need it. It’s a comforting feeling to know my prayers are heard. It gets all this junk off my shoulders and allows me to go on with my day.

My Anguished Prayers

1 Thessalonians 5:17 says, “Pray without ceasing…” With all that’s going on in the world, that verse rings more true now than ever before. There’s so much to pray for, so many people to pray for as much as our own needs. Prayer is powerful and nothing is wrong with laboring before God, pouring out our heart’s cry to Him. I’m reminded of Hannah who was so anguished because she was barren. God answered her prayer and blessed her. David anguished in prayer all the time. God loves that. He loves to hear what’s deep down inside that we don’t always tell others, even our closest loved ones. He searches our heart so He knows what we’re going through and He wants us to be transparent with Him.

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And, when we get desperate, we put down the religious words…we come out and say what we feel, what we need. We speak from the depths of our soul and that’s the kind of prayers He pays close attention to. He wants to hear how much we need Him, how we’re lost without Him, He wants to feel every word that comes from our mouths. And, even if the situation doesn’t immediately change, just know that He heard you. And, He will answer. I know because He always answered me. It may not always be the answer I want, but I was never disappointed by His reply either. He knew better than me how to handle my anguished prayers.

Kim McDougal

Kim is the founder and creator of Growing Up in Grace. By day, she's the Director of Interactive Communications for the Hispanic chamber located in Jax, FL. Kim also owns "Beautiful Food Photography" and sells her handmade greeting cards and vintage art printables on Etsy.