If I could get out of God’s way in my life, He would have a much easier time governing me!
But the trouble is I can’t put my emotions aside half the time. I’m too caught up in my own drama… thoughts, actions, body language, you name it.
I can’t seem to put it all aside and let Jesus work His way in my life consistently. I’m holding onto too tight to pain, let’s be real about it.
Why hold onto something that hurts? Yet, I find myself doing it all the time. It could be a disappointing meeting I had at work. Instead of laying it on the throne and going on with the rest of my evening, I’m pondering over it.
I’m thinking about how it went bad and what could have been done to prevent the outcome. I’m even blaming myself, “what could I have done to make it better?” The truth is most of the time, “nothing”, because I’m taking life too personally. I ask, “how can I prevent this from ever happening again?”
My prayers need to be, “Lord, I’ve had enough of me, please override my will.” I have to surrender my will and my wants daily. Whatever God wants has to be whatever I want.
It comes down to trusting His ways over my own. It’s up to me to let go of my drama and even put my selfish wants to the backburner so God can have His way. I will be better off in the end.