I know I should never doubt God’s presence. I know I should always know that He is with me and that He will never leave me.
But, do I doubt?, Yes.
Negativity creeps in and I wonder what’s coming next, will a bomb drop and thwart all my plans? These are the thoughts that I must rebuke and give over to God. The reality is…it’s not easy to believe what we can’t see or explain rationally. It takes blind faith to follow God. We’ve never seen Him in person, never sat before Him like the disciples did. We don’t hear His audible voice like we hear with other people. It takes a belief that naturally we don’t have to follow Him.
The only comparison I can think of would be when I have a headache or feel a cold coming on… I reach for the Ibuprofen or cough medicine, a cough drop or a homemade remedy like hot tea and honey. Why? Because I believe these will make me feel better although I have NO idea how they work. I can’t even pronounce the ingredients!
Yet, it’s easy to believe they work because they are tangible, products that have been recommended by health experts or by others who treat symptoms holistically and they have proven results. Again, it’s that one word: eyesight. I can see pills, cough medicines, hot tea. I can’t see God like that. So to follow God with success takes looking at what He’s already done. Remembering the past prayers that were answered, victories that He won for me, promises He’s made that were kept.
Looking through His Word and reading the triumphs of Christians before my time. These are tangible because I lived through trials and saw victory that I couldn’t have done myself. I write down my praise reports so I can have a record for those times when I’m feeling lost. We easily forget what God has done, we’re always looking for, “what about now?”
The thing is He’s always with me whether I can sense it or not. He even wrote it in Hebrews 13:5:
Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”