When a major trial we’ve gone through is finally over, we’re sometimes left feeling like fallen petals. It’s like when I accidentally hurt a flower by picking it too hard, I feel so bad. I know the flower has no soul, but still I don’t want to hurt it.
And when my petals have been picked off, I was left with grief, confusion, sadness, disbelief and even depression. It takes God’s grace to come in and help. Sometimes, we have to face facts that we need to leave behind toxic things.
If something or someone is poisoning us, why stay and die? We wouldn’t knowingly drink poison, but we will keep friendships, relations and acquaintances that are literally sucking the life out of us, because we’re afraid to leave it all behind.
I know it takes God’s grace and strength to say, “hey, I’m going to take care of myself now,” and for some of us, it is necessary. Some might say that we’re acting selfishly, but actually it is survival.
I have some fallen petals, but new ones will grow and blossom. They will be stronger than before and will cover the tears I’ve cried and the anguish I felt. Even through the anxiety attacks I had, I still felt God’s peace take over. I’m so thankful to have a close relationship with Jesus cause without Him, we all fall apart.
Jesus’ love is forever. My Lord, thank you for giving me your strength to smile replacing my tears.