As you already know, everyday isn’t always a good day. Sometimes it can start out great and turn bad or some days are just bad from start to end. Today, was more like it started okay and then turned bad. When I got up, I was feeling good and I began my morning routine. I did my cards photoshoot, listed my postcards to eBay and went to work.
I took a mid-morning break to eat and craft some new cards. Whenever I start a new card project, I’m always so excited and it really helps me battle my mind. Anyway, as I put the project aside to ensure I met the Wednesday deadlines for work, is where it turned. I get assignments all the time and when I try to do my part it doesn’t seem to get done. I’m so frustrated with my job Lord as you also know.
I was asked to send out surveys to attendees to get their feedback on the event and it was supposed to be done 24 hours after the event. I asked for the list of attendees twice now (once in email and second as a text) and it went to several people so they know I’m trying to get this done. No response from anyone. The whole day, no response and no survey went out either.
There’s another project that I’ve been waiting for weeks for the artwork and when my project manager asked me to follow up, again no response. I just began to get depressed and frustrated. I remember when I prayed the other night how I heard you tell me to stop trying to control everything and everyone around me. You said it’s better to be happy than angry all day.
I just so need help. Not only do I feel the weight of my job, but also the world. It’s so negative everywhere I turn. It’s hard to find anything online to watch. It makes me feel hopeless and helpless. When will it all change for the better? Is all we have is what we see? If I could just see our personal finances increase and consistently, then I could quit working for other people altogether. My secret prayer…not just to retire but to be completely self sufficient with hubby.
I don’t know what steps we need to take that we’re not doing already, but I’m hanging onto you by a thread. I know you’re able to bless us, I believe you want our life better than this and I know you have the perfect time to bring about change and so I wait. Help me Lord Jesus as I wait to choose happy, to choose contentment than frustration and sadness. In Jesus name, AMEN.